We all make mistakes and I've made a lot of stupid mistakes. This time i'm pretty sure I've hit rock bottom. I hope I have. If I have, than there's gotta be a staircase leading up round here somewhere, right? But that doesn't stop the feeling of shame, I'm beginning to accept regret as a constant burden for me now, it seems whatever I do to escape reality only brings me down further. sometimes I know i'm going to regret it later, but I do it anyway. Sometimes I don't think because I don't want to, thinking may bring focus but it also brings hurt. perhaps I wouldn't have done some of the things I did if I had thought about it, but honestly, who wants to think? It only gives you a headache and I just feel worse off because reality pretty much sucks.
Whatever happens to me, there is one thing i'll always be glad about though, and that's my friends. They save my life everyday x x x
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