Unthinking

Sometimes we do stupid things and we wish we could go back and fix it.
I do stupid things.
And you got to wounder, am I making it worse for them or me?
I'm not somebody to think things through and it's only when I take a step back and look at the whole situation that I realise what a mess i've made.
And the dumb thing is, is that I repeat that mistake again and again until I come to a place where I feel like maybe I keep making this mistake because I actually want to.
Even if it is hurting others and myself too.
And thats a difficult thing to shut out.
Sometimes it can be cured by a good long cry, but sometimes it can't.
I'm going to shut out the world for a little while.